I'm completely in love with the iTunes music store. So far I've bought Idina Menzel (actress who plays Maureen in the movie version of RENT!), Jenny Lewis, Jack Johnson, and the new Ben Harper.

The new Ben Harper is beautiful and stirring. Yet as I sit here playing Chuzzle in a haze, chunks of lyrics are scraping my insides and reminding me of Kevin.

my eyes
burn with unshed tears
my body is weak
from so many silent years
too many people say goodbye
before they say hello
step into the morning
and disappear

there's more to life than what makes you cry
what makes you laugh
i used to make you laugh

so many wasted days
the past is so hard to get out from under

everything i wish for
is everything i see
i remember when your kisses were for me

Of course it reminds me of Kevin. I'd never heard Ben Harper before Kevin. Or Jack Johnson, or Dave Matthews.

Did we give up too quickly? Or did we move in too quickly? Which is it, I'll never know. Different times, different lives, the smallest thing could have changed everything.

I wonder what it is I want out of life? Where will I be in a year?