i’m all alone, and i hate it. it’s been ... god, it’s only been twelve days, and it feels like a hundred. I don’t see him, i barely talk to him, and I HATE IT. i miss him like air. i’m choking in the loneliness.

all my everyones are having bad times. my shauna had a bad go-round with a boy; my otter called me with girl problems; my brothers are.. well, you know what they’re going through; and kevin is gone and he’s not even enjoying it. that’s the worst, i think, that he’s not enjoying it. i can’t even take a wild trip halfway across the world vicariously. he’s there, but he’s not even having any fun.

i’m going to go to bed and cry for a bit, i think. ‘night.

EDIT: Oh! I just checked it, and look! he updated the weblog i made for him... and it was today! I have no idea if that was his today or my today, or greenwich today. but today! I feel a bit better to have had that small contact, actually.